being in trouble with your computer !

tonight I have to type in English! I got troubled with my stupid one drive as it doesn't sync my data with my one drive on my computer, so I can't use my phone typing my daily notes. the bad situation is that I cannot use my Mac typing in Persian, too. as you see tonight you ought to stand my disappointing English!

I  started reading "The Fault in Our Stars" over again. a typical sadly ended love story. this book was my first English book reading experiment. I do like it, simply not for it's love story just because of the writer's bravery in recounting such a love story on a girl side. obviously the writer is male. I respect his bravery.

tonight I  after all found that always in every single part of my life I am alone. the hard part of this fact is word "always". I had believed that there would be a better world that could have reached and find people more promising than what they are now. I used to think childish and simultaneously foolish. there is not such a world.all I see around myself is terrifying people trying to control my thoughts, my life, my purposes, everything that I have. they always put me in a battle field that I would never be able to win. making a good always obeying never annoying loser. till I cannot even breathe. I start to be finished, vanished and forgotten soulless human who will not feel better again.

I'm sorry for everything but sometimes people have to decide to do something just for releasing themselves without considering their beloveds.